10.13.08 - How Dare You Dare Me?

THIS is how much i want to stay. i promise, this amount is right, it's enough to even everything up and bottom us out.
this is our night; all of us are hummingbirds tonight and our song is about as heavy as our combined weight. hey, i'm sorry, tonight's been wonderful and so have you. it seems i can't apologize enough for the way i behave sometimes.
if you'd open your throat a little wider, i'm always willing to hear what comes out. those little chirps make a lot of things make sense on the regular. i wish you'd been here tonight to see how we all split and divided into separate parts, i think you would have liked to see us shrink down to the size of wood chips.
i'm getting a little happier, i promise, just have a little bit more of that drink and you'll start to believe me. i can make promises to you until my vocal chords shrivel, but that doesn't always mean i'll pull my own weight through. but i think if you asked me hard enough, i'd do it right.
there's a tree upstate i'd like you to see. it's taller than most people, all people. i'd like to see you up at the top in your tree branch nest, and i'd like to hear what you think:
"those smokestacks remind me
of home, like you remind me of
home."
i'm horribly flattered and ashamed by the curves you've uncovered on the both of us, but i'll accept whatever you wanna give me. and i'm alone, but that's been sounding better every day. maybe it was just me i wanted to hold onto all this time and not any of you, not any part of you. maybe all the different parts of you would be to unbearable to carry, but i think i'd like to hold them if i could.
under this weather, i don't feel so bad after some movement. and i wouldn't feel so bad if you didn't wanna go upstate with me, i'd understand if you wanted to walk it slow and alone;
you are an ocean after all.
i'm more like the mouth of a big river, (i am always emptying myself out) that you studied in your geography class, saying, "i'd like to go there someday." i think you've been trying to get there, and maybe one day you will, you'll get to see what you've been missing. you know i have a lot of questions.

me and you are to be continued.