as a force of nature, you are more desirable in theory. i wanted and waited, all that time was i being honest? probably. but tonight, today, this morning, i would be faker than a wax form of myself if i asked you to love me. tonight, today, this morning, i am ready to embark on loving someone other than what you and your mistakes sum up to become, in the grand scheme of things. because i want you but i don't deserve you. that is my decision, i have made it. how happy are you? don't fall back to sleep before i leave you. maybe if you're there when i am i'll miss you again, but tonight, today, this morning, i'm happy better off. i am not angry. i do not need to destroy me or take someone's innocence as my trophy, because you have not hurt me tonight. when i'm lugging boxes and boxes and boxes, climbing steps to get away, i hope you see me and realize i am a phoenix, wings spread too wide to ever fit back in that twin bed.
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