August 22nd, 2007

i love you i've got you i love you i've got you i love you. it was so cold under the mountains where we kissed, our hands shook with each blow to the belly, but we made it out okay. all of our secrets and our controversies, those minutes we spent underneath are legends to our friends. years we spent on hold, ripping our hair out at every backwards step to every party we ever went to. i remember pink bottles in your medicine cabinet, how they kept your mind at bay, when you drowned yourself in them, drank yourself to sleep. you missed her but you didn't let her hold on too long to your coat tails, you kept your lies going, the separation made it easier. you lost weight, what weight? you lost friends, you lost your mind, but you kept me, we kept each other inside boxes, no return address. the classes we skipped to dance under the stairs, all of your beauty and silver eyes made it easier to live under you. we took turns and we skipped spaces and cheated our way to the end that we thought was coming sooner, but it never came. it still isn't here. looking at you from illegal angles i know now that our bones were too big for our skin, we weren't supposed to be suspended from wires above eachother like those years told us. your hands and mine don't fit and our abandoned board games are under your bed where they belong, with our clothes and shedding skin and thinning hair. you're clawing at my brains and i've got you here, whenever you feel too ugly to step inside.